un-lovliness

Hello.

How are you this *insert adjective here* day?

I would say lovely.

But today wasn't lovely.

It was less than lovely

It was better than bad.

bad

Anyway here's why today was unlovely:

1. I am sick

2. I can't dance

3. I still cant dance

4. When I am sick I can't sing and singing is what helps make my day lovely :/

5. I'm bored

Now I will elaborate:

1. I am sick.

This one's easy. I'm sick. There is snot in my nose. And scratchiness in my throat. This is an un-lovely feeling. A feeling which I would desperately like to rid myself of, but unfortunately that entails a grueling trip to a doctor over 40 minutes away and due to my extreme laziness (which is not, in fact, caused by my sickness) I did not visit him.

2. (and 3. for that matter). I can't dance.

Now, I don't know if this has always been true about me, when I was a young(er) girl I took dance class. I'm not sure if I had actually been a good dancer because... well I was 5 and at that point I thought that Big Bird was a miraculous dancer. Anyway back to the point, for some strange reason I have recently found myself in (2) situations that require some talent in dancing. One being I have recently gotten the lead in this year's musical (hooray.) and I am meant to dance in several songs which will be performed in front of several hundred people (of which I know probably... 3/4). Now that's a musical which requires singing and acting talent as well, I suppose those talents would be considered something along the lines of "secure"(or whatever some other word my teachers use to tactfully inform me that I am stupid, but passing so there's no need to worry), but the second thing means me dancing. Thankfully there are 6 other people, but the dancing is actually complex, and involves simultaneous movement of the hands and feet. It's far too much for a person with the hand-eye coordination of a thumb-tack to handle. Anyway, the entire thing will be performed next Friday for my school's spirit week and I only did it because my friend needed more people. Personally, I am not looking forward to the unlovliness of those 3 minutes. I also believe that we are behind schedule and have a horrible feeling that while everyone else is looking all pretty and graceful, I will be looking like a chicken who has recently been decapitated. (Side note: I do believe unloveliness is a word I will be using more and more frequently)

4. Sick & not singing.

My vocal chords are inflamed and currently blocking my airways, thus disabling me from singing. This is not fun because I enjoy singing. I play the ukelele, guitar, and piano, but none of these instruments (due to the fact that I am not very good at any of them) are incredibly boring when you aren't singing, its just chords (unless I play classical piano, but I'm rarely in the mood for Beethoven). This whole being unable to sing thing is unlovely.

5. Boredom.

This word is one that I would really love to remove from my vocabulary because in my opinion it is constantly being overused by teenagers much like myself. It is also one of the things that irritates me about the aforementioned teenagers. I understand you are bored. I suggest you read a book or the news and attempt to gain some knowledge as opposed to feeling your brain with useless crap. The reason I am allowing myself to use it in this situation is I am bored all the time. It's not that I am unoccupied, but in general, I am bored. I do my homework, rehearse, read, eat, hang out with friends, rehearse, attempt to make music, study, rehearse, but its still boring. My life has gone from quite interesting to monotonous. Of how it has changed I am unaware, maybe it was gradual and I have been oblivious to it until now, maybe it's sudden. I'm not sure. But it is different. The thing that really bugs me about the fact that my life is boring is..... well.... I don't mind. I don't mind doing the same thing everyday, I don't mind not being in the "gossip circuit". I'm a teenager as of 16 days ago and I don't think it's normal for me to settle for monotony. Maybe I'm just an old person in a 13 year old's body.

Creepy picture now stuck in my mind.

Lovely. Unlovely.

Until then I leave you with the single question: Do you prefer constant uncertainty, teenage drama, and other factors of junior high that are supposedly meant to make your life hell, or do you prefer certainty, no drama, and a life of extreme dullness?

Goodbye until I feel like returning and ranting to no one again.